Painful

Ex boyfriend who I've been trying to be friends with and having a great time the last two weeks decided to act an ass last night and now won't speak to me. He is a verbally abusive drunk. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I just wish I could stop giving a shit so walking away wouldn't have to suck so much. I am so tired of life sucking. Why can't something work out well for once? Miserable.